just about me and Love

Written @ 1:30:00 AM

1.20am now.. the morning of sat.. so boRing.. juz now get to know my prsp assignmEnt 2 resuLts liao. yah.. i muz calL ah yong "sHi fU" liao ... coz of the resUlts.. yah.. whY leh?

:: it's for me to noe, for u to find out ::

today weNt to wOrk.. oOps.. shld bE yestErday, wHich is a fRidaY.. hee.. start woRk @ 12pm which is as uSual for my schEduLe.. leFt @ 4.10pm .. so tiRed loh.. reach far eaSt sQuare around 11.45pm whIch is stilL a litTle early, so was haNging outsIde, talkIng.. but who kn0ws when i stEpPed in, there weRe alrEady aBt 6 taBles being filLed.. all is abt 3 or 4 ppl in a tablE.. =/
oh goSh.. fRiday normally wilL have alot of customErs.. so as expEcted.. ppl strolLing in and wanna gEt a tabLe insiDe.. some waiTed outsIde for tabLes to be emptY befoRe they can coMe in and enjOy and cool-neSs.. finalLy get it doNe arOund 2.40pm .. staRted doIng the clEan up.. wiPing taBles, clearIng pepPer & salt.. bUt thEn.. a buNch of ppl came in arOund 3.15pm. diao~ i juz clean all the taBles and arrange the outside loh.. and then a group of about 10-12 ppl came and sat outsiDe.. then the taBles are mesSy again.. *soB*

my mind is wandEring around duRing my woRk.. hAiz.. i tot of hIm. alot of tHings.. memoRies.. times.. daYs.. is i realLy liKe hIm, or i juz cant leT it go and dun bear to lEt it go?
this is a qns.. bUt then.. he is realLy the spEciaL one.. comParEd to the previOus.. he realLy cared for me alOt.. befOre or duRing.. afTer... we have leSser tHings to say.. i dUn feEl like faCing him, yEt i feEl like seEing him.. i dun wanna talK to hIm, duN wanna hEar his voIce, yEt i misS him alot.. im contradicting.. am i?
i duNno~ i hate myself.. i hate him, hate hIm for letting go eaSily.. i told him, i do not hate him.. actually maybe there is a littLe.. still thinKing aBout it.

jiafuU calLed me in the nite.. miss hiS calLs twIce.. then finalLy get to taLk to him around 10pm.. yah.. he told me quIte a no of things about thE chAlet.. that weiJie scare hIm.. then junshAn told hIm that the chalEt was sIanz.. that everyone iS liKe siTting insiDe, watChing tv..one shOw afTer anOthEr.. which even inclUdes the neWs. lolz.. afTer that then went for bowlIng.. hahaz.. dun loOk liKe the stYle of p0ly stuDents. yah.. dunno~ anyway they enJoyed themseLves and it's goOd.. =)

last tHing that he saId.. coz he foUnd out accidEntalLy during the confErenCe the day juz beFore the chalEt.. with melIa, xin and ting.. ha... but im stilL alRigHt..

** an endIng wiTh a 'R' is a beGinNing of a nEw 'R' **